I have a confession of sorts to make..... Even through all the heart breaks and life lessons learned the hard way as always I still believe in crazy stupid love. I should be bitter after everything I have been through but I refuse to let things get the better of me. I keep hoping for someone to show up and see me, the real me. I am tired of people only seeing part of me as I am sure many other women feel the same way. Even at the ripe old age of 25 like I am ( stop laughing it is my lie and I can tell it how I want to. ) I keep wishing and holding out hope that someday he will find me. Not the guy who can only talk about being physical, there is SO much more to life than that it drives me nuts when that is all people can think of to talk about. I thought I found the perfect person. I guess I was wrong because I was told before that if men want to make something happen they would if not then it won't happen. Plain and simple which I appreciate the honesty of that statement. Someday somehow I will have my chance at crazy stupid love however that looks when it happens. Maybe he will end up at my front door or come walking around a corner somewhere. All I know is that I am worth it and whoever the right person is will know it. No matter how many times he tries to push me away I will wait. What I really wish for is just a chance at it just to see where it goes and how it feels along the way. So yes my dear no one I refuse to let the world break me even when I should let it. I am way to stubborn to let it win. I may be single for the rest of my life and I am ok with that if that is Gods plan for me. But if someone is reading this and you know the world is trying to break you or make you think it is impossible all I say is be open and give it a shot when love shows up. No one said it would be perfect or ideal but if you find someone who looks at you like you are perfect or ideal isn't it worth the chance? I will not beg or ask anyone for anything they are not willing to give, that would not be fair. So here I sit patiently waiting for my turn, if it happens fantastic if not that is ok to. Life is to short to settle for anything less than what I know I want. Here is to 11:11 wishes every night and some stupid girls ideal image of imperfect love that becomes perfect because 2 people don't want to grow old without the other person by their side.
Dear No One,
I have a confession of sorts to make..... Even through all the heart breaks and life lessons learned the hard way as always I still believe in crazy stupid love. I should be bitter after everything I have been through but I refuse to let things get the better of me. I keep hoping for someone to show up and see me, the real me. I am tired of people only seeing part of me as I am sure many other women feel the same way. Even at the ripe old age of 25 like I am ( stop laughing it is my lie and I can tell it how I want to. ) I keep wishing and holding out hope that someday he will find me. Not the guy who can only talk about being physical, there is SO much more to life than that it drives me nuts when that is all people can think of to talk about. I thought I found the perfect person. I guess I was wrong because I was told before that if men want to make something happen they would if not then it won't happen. Plain and simple which I appreciate the honesty of that statement. Someday somehow I will have my chance at crazy stupid love however that looks when it happens. Maybe he will end up at my front door or come walking around a corner somewhere. All I know is that I am worth it and whoever the right person is will know it. No matter how many times he tries to push me away I will wait. What I really wish for is just a chance at it just to see where it goes and how it feels along the way. So yes my dear no one I refuse to let the world break me even when I should let it. I am way to stubborn to let it win. I may be single for the rest of my life and I am ok with that if that is Gods plan for me. But if someone is reading this and you know the world is trying to break you or make you think it is impossible all I say is be open and give it a shot when love shows up. No one said it would be perfect or ideal but if you find someone who looks at you like you are perfect or ideal isn't it worth the chance? I will not beg or ask anyone for anything they are not willing to give, that would not be fair. So here I sit patiently waiting for my turn, if it happens fantastic if not that is ok to. Life is to short to settle for anything less than what I know I want. Here is to 11:11 wishes every night and some stupid girls ideal image of imperfect love that becomes perfect because 2 people don't want to grow old without the other person by their side.
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