XOXO life bring on the magic of life!
I currently have So many questions about things!! Can someone please oh please explain to me why it is that a guy can talk to you for a while then just poof disappear and when they reappear if they find out you have been near anyone then you are the whore. Nevermind the fact that they are or were dating someone else at that time.. Can someone explain to me why it is good women are expected to wait but men can do what they want. I refuse to be put on a shelf like a toy I am better than that! I deserve someone who will want to be with me not just when it's good for him or he thinks he won't be caught. Block me on social media then tell me you miss me and want to see me... Forgive me when I don't respond anymore to the foolishness and mind games. I am worth more than that. I ask for very little other than truth and loyalty, if I can't get that it's not worth my time. Truth isn't always pretty but it is more precious than a lot of other things and probably one of the most expensive gifts someone can give another person.
XOXO life bring on the magic of life!
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It's not a secret that I am single and have been for a long time now, there is a reason for that.. It's not because of past relationships hurting my feelings anymore because I am over it. I have learned, licked my wounds and moved on a stronger and wiser person. The day I closed on my house I set a personal goal for myself that perhaps much to my dismay I actually followed but I guess since I am so incredibly stubborn it shouldn't be all that shocking. I told myself that until I refinance my home and was able to financially break free from the rest of the collateral damage from my marriage I should not be in a actual relationship with someone because I didn't think it was fair to bring old things forward with me. So now here I am ready to refinance and now facing being open to something. To whoever is brave enough to want to spend time with me, please don't expect me to beg for a label I only ask that you want only me. I am fiercely loyal to someone who won't make me guess things. I need someone who will show effort even if it is small as long as it's genuine that's all I need. Presents are great but time can't be taken back ever so to me it is much more of a precious gift that someone can give to me. Time doesn't always have to be in person either, it's a call, text, card in the mail, email you get what I mean... Schedules get busy and it's not always easy to see someone, that doesn't mean you don't want to it means you are busy hustling and making life better for the future which I respect more than you will ever know!! To the man brave enough to want to be with me, just remember little things matter most and get to me faster than many other things. XOXO life bring on the magic of 11:11 wishes I am so ready!
Ps if we ever get to the point I would call you a boyfriend know that you are now a unicorn sir! I have been seeing a lot of things differently lately, or more so observing behavior of others and myself I should say. People tend to see things they way they need to see them at that time based on their life. Take the movie 50 Shades of Grey for instance, some see a woman being stalked and abused by her boyfriend. I see intense connection and a man pursuing a woman that he only has eyes for. Some people crave the negative side of things others see the positive side. I would love to have someone that knows I am attracted to them pursue me like that. Not so much the lavish dates but the consistency that he shows. He wants her and knowing the story line once he has her he doesn't give up and become complacent in their lives. Lord help me if I find the man who is alpha male enough to see me and want me and is blind to other women and can keep it fresh with new things from time to time. I joked that if I found someone who can toss me around the bedroom I would marry him immediately but it's more than that I want someone to want me as much as I want them, perhaps even crave me. Romance my mind and control my body, then we can talk.... XOXO life bring on the magic I have waiting for my birthday on Saturday!!
People complain that I have walls to big for anyone to get past. Those walls were built brick by brick from the people that hurt me, the lies, cheating, and the goodbyes. I have taken the good from things and I will hold them close to my heart always. I remember the bad and I learn from it but there is one thing that I fail to learn from. I will never learn anything but pain from the goodbyes that were never spoken, much like a ghost in my head. Leaving without saying anything makes people wonder what they did to deserve that. Does it leave the door open for them to walk back through if they want to at some point or is it something else. Ahh yes my walls are mighty but the right person with patience, consistency and creativity will be able to see past that and get close to me. I love the quote from Bob Marley that says: The biggest coward of a man is to awaken the love of a woman without the intention of loving her.” Please don't try to wake me up if you are just going to walk away or choose someone else. If I choose you no one else matters so don't worry about them wanting me if I have no interest in them at all because you are all I see.
XOXO life bring on the 11:11 wishes and shooting stars I am ready for some magic!!! |
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