She was tired, not physically but emotionally. She was tired of waiting and hoping for things that wouldn't happen. She was tired of holding on to the idea of the life he talked about with her. She was done begging for time done waiting for him to miss her in his life. She knew that she couldn't put life off any longer. So with tears in her eyes she bid a goodbye to someone who will never hear it because he wasn't listening to her. With her head held high she walked away. If there comes a day that he misses her and wants what they could have had he will have to come find her. Once upon a time she would have waited longer but she knows now life is to short to wait for anyone or anything that didn't see the beauty of her soul.
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The tough part of learning and growing is recognizing when you need to just stop doing things that don't serve your greatest good in life. I decided to make a pledge to myself today...
I pledge to: Not chase anyone I will not beg for attention I will not beg for time I will not allow anyone to belittle me I will not allow negative things in my life I will not try to force anyone to do anything I will be calm I will be open to new things I will be kind I will be responsible for myself and no one else's behavior I truly only want someone in my life who gives their time and attention freely to me not because they think they have to but because they want to. I will someday find the person who sees the fire in my eyes and not only wants to play with it but craves it in their life. I won't put my heart on the line for anyone who isn't ready for it and can't appreciate someone like me. I miss being able to take care of a significant other, doing the little things to make them smile and just being a compliment to their life. I will never miss being taken advantage of and spoke down to on a constant basis. I am stubborn as hell so when I say I won't do it believe me it's not gonna happen... XOXO life bring on the magic of 11:11 wishes and shooting stars! I can honestly say that my daughter's have inspired me today to be a little more brave and take a few more chances in life. I sat with my youngest girl last night as she was in tears before leaving for a week this morning to go on a mission trip. She was terrified of the unknown and didn't want to go, I had to reassure her that the only way to find out is to try it. Step out of your comfort zone and give it hell. I have been missing something in my life lately and I think that's it. I have been afraid of speaking my truth and being honest about how I feel about things for a long time. Now it's time to change that, so to anyone who I will be upfront with please be gentle because I am terrified out of my mind. I will take chances and try new things even if my voice shakes. No one truly ever became successful within their comfort zone. Time to stop hiding and playing it safe and now is my time for success in all aspects of my life and live life not just exist in it!! XOXO life I hope your ready for me cause I'm coming for you!!!
Soapbox alert rant about to happen! Guys, read this carefully please.... If you have a woman in your life and he adores you yet you are acting like a bitch because she isn't perfect you have 2 choices 1) take a midol and eat some chocolate 2) don't get pissed when someone else notices your woman.
I am tired of these ridiculous expectations some men have for the women they are with yet they have no level of responsibility themselves to the relationship. Ummm hey guys unless your perfect ya might want to get off your high horse and come down with the rest of us. Throwing away a good woman or making her wait for you is like ordering a pizza and then falling asleep, ya gonna eat it when your ready sorry boo if it isn't as good as it could have been when it was ready in the first place. If she is loyal to you and doesn't stray even when you push her away wife her like meow. The grass doesn't get much greener than with someone who not only deals with your shit but can handle it like a champ and still wants to wake up next to your dumb as every day. Wake up guys your need for space might push her to someone else, don't be mad cause ya did it yourself. If you want to wake up next to her for the rest of your life say something, do something before it's too late. * This rant does not point fingers to anyone in my life, my friends are coming to me with similar situations and it pisses me off. If your reading this and it hits home with you for any reason think about it. Life is to short to not take chances! XOXO life bring on the 11:11 wishes!! Maybe it's mercury retrograde or maybe it's just life but I am ready for some changes. I have been reflecting a lot on my life lately and I get mad. I am not even close to where I thought I would be by now in career or personal life.. Anyone that knows me at all knows it's a good idea to keep an eye on what's about to happen because I am going to focus on what I can change and I have to let the rest go. It might hurt right now to let go and see what comes back if it comes back at all. I have to remind myself that what hurts me the most is the idea of what it should have been and sometimes people can't see me for who I am or appreciate what they could have had. Working makes sense to me, love not so much. If someone wants me they need to be clear, no games and no wait and see. I won't settle for less despite what I have been told to do. I would rather be single forever than to settle ever again I did that once and I won't go back. I believe in wishes and hard work. One will bring me success in career life the other hopefully some day will bring my happy ever after if that's in the cards for me... Head up, shoulders back eyes focused forward, if someone wants to be part of my life they need to put themselves there. XOXO life bring on the magic of 11:11 wishes please!
Trying to figure out my life is the equivalent to brushing my teeth and eating oreos or cleaning the house when the kids are home. I feel lost lately it seems like all the plans I have in my head are just fantasy and it's not going to happen. I pray and pray and try to stay positive but honestly it's my fault that no one knows how hard it is for me to be open about feelings or patient for things to happen. I have waited a long time for things to happen for me and I truly believe that it's my turn. It's my turn for having someone care about me not just privately but publicly say that's her and she's mine. I have worked my butt off to get things lined up for the refinance on my house to happen but I need it now more than ever. It's my time to really shine both with work and personal life. I have been practicing stepping out of my comfort zone and even telling a couple people I can't go out with them until I know for sure if someone wants to start seeing me. Yep that's a first for me, of course he probably doesn't because that's just my luck or lack of. Yep Cinderella wants to go to the ball, just need to figure out if anyone wants to dance with me when I get there..... Here's to 11:11 wishes, shooting stars and prayers coming true, I need it now more than ever! XOXO life bring on the magic and all the good stuff... please!!
I love simple things like driving past a place that can bring a smile to my face just from the memories it brings back. They say not to live in the past but if it brings a smile to your face when your current world is in chaos it can't be all that bad! I have a weakness for people who can make lasting memories that can make me smile or even giggle. I admit sometimes I will back off not as a game but to see if someone is truly interested or if it is just habit or convenience to talk to me. I want someone to want me as much as I want them. Here's to 11:11 wishes and being kissed in the rain, may it happen forever! XOXO life bring on the magic!
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