I know that the message was sent with the best of intentions however a few detail were missing from the message that was sent. Little things like asking me what I thought was going on to which my response would be the same it always has been that would be I don't know but it sure is fun! I learned a long time ago to not have expectations from others because thats how people get hurt. I don't push for things because if it's meant to happen it will and I know it. I take one day at a time one moment at a time. I value people who make me smile and I love it when I can have a moment to last a lifetime even if it's just a moment. I have a great life I really like where I am headed but in no way shape or form does the happiness of my future depend on a man, I made that mistake when I was married and I won't do it again. I know my worth and I know I am awesome I just don't need to shout it from the rooftops mostly because it's cold outside and there is ice on the roof and I would fall off... HA! In the 3 years I have been single I have spent the night with 2 people so I think that solidifies the whole not needing someone I choose to want someone at some point but the thing that is most important is to have fun and smile as much as possible with awesome people. Yes I get emotional sometimes but maybe just maybe it's because I hold things in a lot because of things like this happening. Like I said I know the message was sent to help but honestly it just hurt me and reminded me that I am not ready to trust people yet so although it might be viewed as one step forward for me it was a huge step back and some what insulting that someone thought I was weak... I am a damn tiger and I have earned my stripes most of which I earned them the hard way too. Life is to short to fight about things or worry about things you can't change my plan is to just go with it and see what happens!!! Good bad or otherwise if I can wake up with a smile life is a success <3 Light and love to everyone because I know lots of people need it!!!
To whoever sent the message today, you know who you are I do not so this blog is for you.
I know that the message was sent with the best of intentions however a few detail were missing from the message that was sent. Little things like asking me what I thought was going on to which my response would be the same it always has been that would be I don't know but it sure is fun! I learned a long time ago to not have expectations from others because thats how people get hurt. I don't push for things because if it's meant to happen it will and I know it. I take one day at a time one moment at a time. I value people who make me smile and I love it when I can have a moment to last a lifetime even if it's just a moment. I have a great life I really like where I am headed but in no way shape or form does the happiness of my future depend on a man, I made that mistake when I was married and I won't do it again. I know my worth and I know I am awesome I just don't need to shout it from the rooftops mostly because it's cold outside and there is ice on the roof and I would fall off... HA! In the 3 years I have been single I have spent the night with 2 people so I think that solidifies the whole not needing someone I choose to want someone at some point but the thing that is most important is to have fun and smile as much as possible with awesome people. Yes I get emotional sometimes but maybe just maybe it's because I hold things in a lot because of things like this happening. Like I said I know the message was sent to help but honestly it just hurt me and reminded me that I am not ready to trust people yet so although it might be viewed as one step forward for me it was a huge step back and some what insulting that someone thought I was weak... I am a damn tiger and I have earned my stripes most of which I earned them the hard way too. Life is to short to fight about things or worry about things you can't change my plan is to just go with it and see what happens!!! Good bad or otherwise if I can wake up with a smile life is a success <3 Light and love to everyone because I know lots of people need it!!!
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A couple days ago I was asked a great question "Why are you single?" I have a standard answer to that which is that I am just picky. It's more than that much more but how do you explain it to someone who doesn't know me. I am single because I value myself and I won't settle. I won't just give it up to just anyone because I am more like winning the lottery than playing a scratch off ticket. I know what I want and yes to be honest I know who I want too. Until the day he whispers in my ear that I am his I will be patient and love every moment that life brings to me. I say whisper because it doesn't need to be a huge public thing no need to make it official on social media I just need to know he wants me as much as I want him and I am good. So yes I am single but it doesn't mean that I am available if that makes any sense. I get annoyed when people assume that because I am single there must be something wrong with me well my friends I will let you choose from 2 options 1) I am bat shit crazy and I will sit outside your window at night with a candle and a voodoo doll until they love me OR 2) I am a hard working single mom who took the time to figure out what I want what I don't want and I refuse to settle for less than magic.... Both are great options one is true the other is just funny as heck! Like I said simple question not so simple answer!!
I have been chatting with a few people and we have all come to the same decision. When you reach a certain age you no longer require titles such as girl friend or boy friend, what we truly desire is the knowledge that we are wanted by someone and no one else is. We want consistency and no second guessing if they are interested in us. We want the conversation to happen where we just agree that we don't want anyone else in our lives that we are what the other person wants. Sometimes its as simple as walking up behind someone putting your arms around them and saying your mine, no one else needs to hear it but after that the world needs to see it even a little bit. No pressure, no rings just knowing that you are wanted by the one you want it enough, long term thing can change but in the beginning all we need is it just to be claimed.
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