I believe in laughing until your tummy hurts. I believe in the power or a wish at 11:11 or wishing on a star. I believe in the power of a hug from the right person at the right time. I believe long drives with the radio up loud is great therapy or sitting on a dock just watching the water. I believe in the power or silence leading to answers you seek. I believe in love at first sight even if you have seen the person before and you are seeing them in a whole new way. I believe in the power or love. I believe in fate, hope and faith things will turn out perfect. I believe everything happens for a reason even if we don't know what the reason is until years down the road. I believe that learning things the hard way is one of the best teachers. I believe in the power of a smile but mostly I believe in magic because it's everywhere you just have to be willing to see it!!! As we grow older we forget it is the little things the simple things that mean the most. Flowers die, gifts can break or be lost but memories last forever. Try seeing things in a much simpler way and see what happens - life itself can change right before your eyes all you have to do is find the magic in each moment!
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So you think you are a player? You might want to be sure you are not trying to play with someone who knows your game and can play it better than you! I see people both men and women trying to run games on people to bad for most of them they think they are smart however they need to think about the big picture and think about long term effects of the game. Not everyone in the world has their head stuck in the sand and can't figure things out quickly so with that said I have seen the player get played on more than one occasion and its EPIC when it happens. Ahhh yes yes no one in the world can figure out what you want when they only call late at night or when they want to meet some where later. We all get busy but seriously there is a limit even for me. I get it we all have needs so why not just be open and say it, if you want more or if you are open to more say that too! We as adults have this thing I like to call free will, we are not forced to do anything we don't want to do and if you are it's one of two reasons either low self esteem or rape. Low self esteem you can fix, rape not so much but both happen and both are hard to deal with. Now back to the players - be careful when you are making the rules that you can play along with them because your rules may come back to bite you in the ass. She or he who is being played in your head may outsmart you use you for what they want and move on to someone who will not only give them everything they need and want but they will get the best of the person you are playing not just part of them like you are getting from the game. So really the person who is cheating themselves is the player because you are missing out on the best part of someone who was willing and happy to spend time with you - enjoy the bed you make because its not always comfortable! Do yourself a favor and at least make a little effort to spend actual time with someone you want to play with before you decide that you only want 1 thing from them...
Through struggles we face each day we make a choice to be better or bitter from it. Sometimes in life we go through things not to hurt us but to teach us, sometimes the lesson is so simple yet lost along the way with everyday life. The lesson we lose most often is to appreciate what we have before it becomes what we had. In my case I went through divorce, no I am not sad about it at all because quite frankly we were toxic to each other and it wasn't healthy. I had to make a decision that I loved myself enough that I could take a step in faith alone that breaking free was the best thing for me and its been an amazing ride ever since. Days seem longer and the sun is brighter. I love the little things in life so much more and I appreciate people for who they are and what they bring to the world. Imagine a world filled with people who love life, who can see the positive in any situation thats thrown at them. What a wonderful place it would be. Life is what you make of it the choice is yours you can exist or you can live! Live it up, drink it down and never forget the people who stood by your side when things got crazy and you went off the deep end. Give love and smiles freely they cost nothing and can mean everything. Always remember that someone can be falling in love with your smile so take it everywhere you go!!! Life happens but we don't have to be lost in the shuffle trying to make a living and forgetting to live life to the fullest. I challenge every one to make a goal to do something just 1 thing they have never done before in the new year and just see if
I'm sorry that I was not good enough, pretty enough, skinny enough, attentive enough, smart enough or available enough. But most of all I am sorry that you didn't take the time to get to know the real me before you decided that. Everyone says they love smart motivated women until they meet one then its a whole different story, why?? Yes I am busy, yes I love to talk to people but most of all I love to have a conversation with people who can actually carry on a conversation instead of just agree with everything. I am a feisty, bull headed bitch when I want to be which I admit can be a double edged sword. I just feel bad for all the guys who walked away from someone before they had a chance to get to know them better - you could have missed your perfect match because of a snap judgement about something. We are all going through something and not everyone wants to dump things on someone new. Yes I hold back from fear of being hurt but I slowly let down my guard as I feel more comfortable. I just have to trust the right person may not understand me but wants to try. If you someone is looking for an awesome partner perhaps someone who is motivated is a great match, even though they are busy just think how special you are if they make time in their schedule just to see you! And as a bonus if they are busy they don't have time to cheat either!
I am sitting here in the quiet thinking about what today means. It is the 2 year anniversary of my divorce. I have never been more excited for life than I am now and I have never been happier either. I find it funny and sad in a way that my ex and now his new wife continue to incinuate that I have not moved on because I am not with someone. So I pondered that thought for a while until I came to the realization that moving on comes in many many forms however the best form it comes in is personal growth. I have grown and changed so much in the last 2 years it's incredible really. I am sure of myself and my life, I know what I want and I am not about to compromise it for someone else.I can now say I would be an amazing partner for the right person and I am in no way shape or form desperate to have a man save me. No instead I have taken the time to lick my wounds and heal myself from the damage that was done from a very destructive marriage. No one is perfect and we all have baggage to carry around I don't care who you are someone at some point did something to cause you a little damage, not even Jesus himself was perfect ok. What I can see is my ex living the life we had in a house similar to our last one, same financial state, heck she even looks like I did when I was bigger. I choose to wait for the right person to find his way to me so we can live our lives together - one that we build completely different than anything I have had before right down to wanting to find someone who love me for me and loves all of me and doesn't want me to change. Understand I am a bull headed bitch sometimes and yet a hopeless romantic and mom all the time. I wish for someone to do something to show me they want me in their life until that happens I will wait but live my life at the same time. I was a shell of a person for far to long to not enjoy every moment from now on. Thank goodness for the day I lost it and said the words that changed my life forever - I want a divorce. It's not always the answer and not to be taken lightly but sometimes its necessary
People say that things matter - I agree to which I say it's the little things that matter the most and touch your heart forever. Its the look you get from someone you care about or the hug at just the perfect time. Its the message saying good morning beautiful or the call saying if you need anything remember they are there for you. You can't buy the things that touch our hearts those moments are free but to many people think about putting a dollar amount on it. If you want a dollar amount on something send someone flowers out of the blue with a message just for them, that would mean the world to someone. Its the moment when you are looking at someone you could possibly love and they brush you hair away from your face just to look at you like they do in the movies. Its the first kiss and all that follow after that. Little things matter the most and if people remember to do the little things more often then I wonder if there would be more love and less hate in the world. Take a moment this holiday season and do something little for someone just because you can not because you want something from them, we are all going through something maybe something little can help make it seem not so bad.
Ok so let me get this straight there are rules to dating or trying to start something with someone or so they say here is what I am finding…. If you don't get physical with a guy soon enough you are either a prude, stuck up, or not interested in them and they leave. If you do get physical then they think you are easy, brainless or a walking hormone for them to use as they see fit and they leave. Text to much you are needy text to little and you are clearly not interested. Talk to much and you are over whelming talk to little and you are to shy and won't open up so they leave. Talk about yourself and you are selfish, ask them questions its an interview. Want to see them and you are clingy don't put pressure on it and you must be seeing others or you are not interested. All I know is that I love to get to know people and yes I talk if I babble its because I am nervous, I stumble over my words or trip if I am around someone really cute. And yes if I am with someone I really like and things start to happen I am going to go with it why because I am human and life is to damn short! Do what you want if people want to stay they will if they want to leave they will. The bigger picture of it is pretty simple people do what they want to and you can't make someone feel something they don't no matter how hard you try. We are trained as young people to do the right thing which is great but I have found that going text book doesn't work so live it up drink it down and have some fun. Every girl wants a bad boy to be good just to her and every guy wants a good girl to be bad just for him all you have to do is give them a chance! Move past the rules and follow your heart and your gut they will never lead you astray if you trust them.
The world is a huge place with people everywhere but I always wonder if he can see me will he know its me he has been looking for? WIll he know that I am a beautiful mess who would love to make him feel loved everyday. Will he support me in my adventures like I will support him? Will it be a look or a touch that brings us together finally? Everything happens for a reason and you meet people at the most random times but when will love happen thats the big question that remains. Love is wonderful when it is with the right person at least thats what I hear. I would love to find love that stays for ever not just a moment and to have it be with someone who is willing to take their time and get it right this time rather than just rush. Best laid plans I guess, time will tell what is in store for me. The future is unknown and its a beautiful mystery to us all. If you think about it really all you can do is enjoy the journey and buckle up for the ride! I can hope, pray and wish all I want to for someone to look at me and see all of me and want all of me, only time will tell if and when he comes. Until then I will be patient and have fun, life stops for no one ever so I have to
Yep thats right I said it! I am the best me I can possibly be with or without someone else in my life. I am not perfect by any means but show me someone who is! I get mad I get sad I can feel happy and joy too! I am human I am a hot mess from time to time and when things are really crazy in my life yes I lash out or hide never knowing which way I will go. I work hard and I am fantastic just the way I am. I love love and I admit I am a hopeless romantic who some day hopes someone will look at me and see forever. I want someone who will try to show me all the time how he feels not just say it. Hugs from behind melt me and dancing with me can make me yours forever. But the truth is I don't need anyone in my life I want someone to be there - HUGE difference because I am in no way desperate. I can and will wait for someone who is awesome. Make me feel special and I will make you feel like you are the only person in the world! I guess that makes me dangerous because I know I am ok alone and I have no issue with it which means anyone who gets any of my attention
Dear Over thinking,
Can I just say you suck. I lose sleep because of you and I get tense because of you too. I know its a girl thing to do but seriously we need to stop meeting like this. I am officially breaking up with you and I will find my woosahhhhh when I feel you coming to visit. Its funny that its not insecurities that cause over thinking sometimes, on occasion its just us trying to figure out a situation that we don't understand yet want to understand it. In the end over thinking can consume our thoughts when we really can be thinking about other things that serve us better. If all else fails just wonder if penguins have knees, that will change your mindset in |
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