I am not the girl who will fall for stupid pick up lines. I won't believe random marriage proposals. I won't cry over you at night. I am not the girl you will pick in the end, I am the girl you will think about while you engage in polite sex with your boring wife or girlfriend. I am the one that gets away all the time. I am not the girl you can tame, I am the one you need to run wild with and stay by my side if you want to be with me. I am the girl who will not judge you or make you feel bad about things. Life happens we all know that, and not every situation requires a reaction. Maybe life has taught me how to shut off my emotions and I am patiently waiting for the man to come into my life who doesn't let me shut down like other men. I will push you away not on purpose so if you want me understand this, I need consistency more than anything. My life was very random for a long long time and I am tired of being hurt by those who claim to care. Stay strong and don't let me go if that's what you want. I am not easy but I promise I am oh so worth it! I know I am not the only one like this so to my other peeps who feel the same way, don't settle just stay strong the path is bumpy but I hear it's worth it in the end! XOXO life bring on the magic of 11:11 wishes!!!
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I read this blog earlier today about the difference between Love and Settling... I completely agree with the way they explained love vs settling. Settling is safe, convenient, regular, consistent, I am not saying there is not love there because there could be. It would be the kind of love that you love the person but you are not in love with them..... Now love ahhhhh the coveted thing that makes us giggle like idiots when you see the persons name come across a phone or computer screen and God help us if we see them in person we get dumber ( well sort of ) Love makes you smile and never stop trying to make the other person happy. Love should make you feel amazing like you are the only person in the entire world when they look at you. I have seen couples with this love that people don't think can happen, my grandparents were prime examples of Settling vs Love. One set settled and that was obvious, when my grandmother passed away my grandpa began to live again and he found love, true love. And let me tell you they were beyond adorable. I was fine at his funeral until she walked in all 4' 8" of her, she looked at him and tears were in her eyes as she said goodbye and that broke my heart. My other grandparents had a marriage that people dream of, not because they were rich but they were so stinking in love. It wasn't always easy but they did it all together and love conquered all and I am sure when my grandma passed away grandpa was there to take her hand to walk through those pearly gates. One more couple that proved to me that real love, true love is possible is my friend Theresa and her husband Vinnie. Again was life perfect for them, nope but they sure as hell loved each other beyond comprehension in the most beautiful way possible. While Vinnie was falling more and more ill she stayed right by his side and was never afraid to tell everyone how much she loved that man. No one is perfect but being in love, really in love with someone can make ordinary moments beautiful. So many inspirations for me to look at to reassure me that love is possible, if you don't just settle for someone to fill a spot. It's true you can't force it to happen it just kind of happens, believe me I tried to force it to happen when I was married and it didn't work. You can care about someone or love them and not be in love with them. The blog was right settling is being scared, being in love is for the brave. To all my brave peeps, keep up the good work and let that love shine. To all of my scared peeps, it's ok to be scared you will come to a point when you are ready to live life not just exist.
XOXO Life bring on the magic and all the good stuff you have waiting for me, I have been to hell and came back a better person who is ready to take over the world with or without someone holding my hand! <3 Warrior T How do you know when it's right, when it's time to leave or when it's time to fight? The simplest yet most complicated answer I can give you is listen to your heart. I was told when I was married that I would know when it was right, truth is I had no clue what I was doing when I uttered those words one fate filled October day. I had no idea what I was doing, I had no plan yet the words just came out all on their own. It wasn't until he actually left that what I can only explain as I woke up. It was amazing and empowering all at the same time. I still had no plan I just knew the plan for my life was bigger than what I had ever imagined and if I kept the faith that it would all work out it would be ok. It hasn't been easy but I can honestly say it was absolutely worth it. Do I think everyone going though a hard time should end it, not a chance in hell!!! If you are in love with them you fight, if you see a future with them you fight and you fight with everything you have every second of every day. If you can look at them and feel compassion yet no passion maybe it's time to move on. If you look at them and feel nothing then the answer becomes much more clear and easy to put into words. It will hurt at first but hurt heals with time and gives way to something much more beautiful. I am still waiting ever so patiently for the one to come along and show me everything others have failed to see. Maybe he will be something out of the movies or maybe it will be something much more simple. All I know is that I will know when he touches me that he is the one I have been waiting for. Ugh I sound like a stupid girl with fluffy bunny feelings right now barf haha! So the best thing I can say is if you are wondering if you should stay or go, just listen to your heart and sometimes when you just blurt things out it's the universe taking over and throwing you onto the path you need to be. Food for thought right!! XOXO life I am so ready for more amazing things to come my way, and if it happens to be someone who will smile and brush the hair away from my face I promise I won't be to upset!!!
Dear No One,
As I sit patiently waiting for you to arrive I tend to wonder what you are like in person. Will you be the kind of man to brush my hair away from my face when you kiss me. Are you the kind of man who will hug me from behind and stay close just to make sure I am safe and no one is bothering me even though you know I can stand my own ground? I get that everything happens when it should and how it should for all the right reasons. I just get tired of all the wrong reasons showing up all the time. I meet incredible people all the time and most have someone special in their lives already and that is awesome. I just pray that they are good to each other and are living their lives together and not just co existing around one another. I see both women and men not appreciating what they have in a partner but I guess that's all part of life right, and that is for sure how we find out what we don't want in the future. I am truly to the point it is crystal clear what I don't want so if the universe could stop sending me short guys, mean guys or my personal favorite men who are not free to be with me even if they wanted to be that would be just super duper. I will never lose faith that someday you will show up and never want to have some connection to me consistently. I admit that some days I waiver in my faith that it you will be here soon because honestly I feel like I have waited forever for you to show up. Until then XOXO life bring on the good stuff!!! <3 T I have had time to ponder things and my only reaction to my life currently is what the whhhaaaattttt???? I work a lot I admit this and yes I do it so I don't necessarily have to deal with things in my life and possibly avoid relationships.... I admit I am far from perfect, however in my defense when I get advice like don't get my hopes up or don't get attached to that one ( referring to men ) it starts to wear on a person after a while. Do I have bad luck with men, not really. I do have bad timing however. I wish for so many things in my life, business, my children's happiness and health, and the one thing I keep wishing for is the one thing that has actively avoided me. I wish for love, not the in your face running your life kind either. I wish I could find someone who will compliment my life not complicate it. I am not needy and I admit I push people away when they start to get close because I am afraid of getting hurt. I will only let people in so far before they hit the wall. I can wait for the person who will be consistent and caring yet protective of me. Hugs from behind and dancing in the rain can melt me, just has to be the right person. I don't go out on dates hardly ever and its even more rare someone will get a second date, if I don't pick up the energy I crave I won't waste anyone's time. For me it's not about money it's all about effort, money doesn't impress me many have tried and it actually just makes me mad. Be a real person who truly cares about me as a person even when I am off my rocker freaked out about things. But seriously I deserve love that's real not this fake crap from people who only want one thing in life. Lots of things can change my mind about someone if I feel safe with them. Here's to more 11:11 wishes! XOXO Life bring on the good stuff I am soooo ready!!!
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