At one point a few years ago I looked in the mirror and saw someone I didn't know staring back at me ( no it wasn't a ghost ). I had become someone I didn't recognize and that day started my journey to me. The first thing I did was take back control of my body and got myself on track working out and getting healthy. The next step was a bit harder, I had to figure out what I wanted from life and when the answer came it was a hard one to accept. I was not happy and I had not been for a long time so the step I had to take was to end my 11 year marriage and move on with my life so in 2011 I took a leap of faith when the right time showed up and I have not looked back since. I sold my wedding ring to pay for the divorce myself and I filed it. Next on the to do list was to figure out who I was and what I had to do to get her back, I had to like myself again and that was no easy task. I wrote down everything I wanted from life; happiness, stability, try new things, learn new things, meet new people and just live life instead of just existing. The world became a better place and colors were brighter, people nicer, life was just better! I found myself and I like her, she bows to no one and doesn't care what people think about her at all. I choose to live life to the fullest and wait for love to find me when its ready. I have enough self esteem now to not be a play toy for someone and I am better than just an option. The right person will kiss me in the rain, dance with me in the snow and love me with no conditions, they will be proud to tell people about me and never make me feel like a secret. The right person exists and he will love my child like ways to wish on falling stars and wish at 11:11 and he will know that a teddy bear and steal my heart and roses make me smile and nothing says I love you more than the look that can take my breath away, money can't buy me only true effort can win me forever!
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