When you meet someone and everything about them makes you feel alive its a gift. When he said I was beautiful I believed it for the first time in my life. I felt special when I was with him, the way he looked at me was incredible. His kisses made me crave more and more his touch made me feel electric. For a brief moment I was the luckiest girl in the world!! He could be my "one", could have been that is...... I have no idea why or how someone could walk away from something like that, I would have moved heaven and earth for him. No matter what once you feel that you truly want that person to be happy, truly happy with or without you. I can't even be mad that he is gone, it may be for now or it may be forever but I can't be mad. I am sad because I wanted to feel like that everyday of my life but they say the right person will never walk away, perhaps its a matter of timing and he will be back someday who knows. Life goes on and the memories are mine forever they will never change. I choose to take the good and leave the bad, it happened so that gives me hope it can happen again maybe this time for real. He maybe with someone else, if so I hope she is good to him and they are happy. I love love but I think love is not a fan of mine at this point. But oh when he looked at me and said I was beautiful, I believed it and all I can do now is hope that someone else thinks that to and I can feel like that again. I know it won't be the same because everyone is different but oh to get close to that would be wonderful. I know I am not the only one who feels like this and I am certainly not the only one who has ever gone though this, we all survive it and grow stronger from it but somedays its easier to remember the looks that can melt a heart and the touch that can grab your soul and make you feel alive in a world that is just living.
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