I remember what it was like to not have to hope you would contact me. I remember what it was like to feel like I was the only one even in a crowded room. I used to think that I knew what heart break was that was until I figured out it's the chance I never really got that hurts more. To many times we forget to ask questions and we make assumptions. I lay in bed at night hoping that if my phone lights up thats its you saying good night. Worse yet I wake up everyday checking my phone to see if you text me good morning like an idiot, there are a million reasons why I should give up hope but there is that little part of me that keeps hoping that you miss me as much as I miss you and maybe someday I will see you walk through the door again. I can't stop hoping that someday I will hear him call me baby and feel his arms around me. I need to keep moving forward and I know it. I can't wait for something that might not happen and I refuse to beg for anything, I am better than that. I deserve to have someone who knows I don't have to see them everyday but a reminder once in a while that they miss me and seeing them once in a while would be nothing short of amazing. Sometimes its the battle of knowing that he will always have a piece of my heart and the pain of knowing I don't have his that makes me feel stupid, then I remember that I do a lot of things that are stupid at least this one made me smile. I will always remember the way it felt when he would touch me, look at me and make me feel.... XOXO life bring on the good stuff!!! I just wish I had a sign of what to do or think at this point, yep that would be super...
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