Its been so long but it really seems like yesterday when you last held me in your arms and everything in the world was right for that moment. Keeping the memories of you looking at me and saying you thought I was beautiful make the bad nights seem not so bad. I can still see your smile, that smile and it makes me smile. I feel like a dork because I know its never going to happen again and yet somehow the memory of you still makes me smile. How can you shake something that made you feel so alive and showed you that you in fact can feel the way you have always wanted to feel. I never got to thank him for that, and I wonder if he knows how it made me feel. I don't judge others by him I just long for the day I can feel someones touch and feel all those things again- so protected, beautiful, loved and young all at the same time with not a care in the world who saw any of it. I know that the timing was wrong perhaps in another lifetime but for now I am ready for the person who fate meant for me to grow old with. I am not in a huge rush to run down the isle or move in with anyone I am willing to wait for the right time for everything to happen trusting in the journey that I am on to take me to where I need to be.
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