The purpose of walls are to protect something and keep it safe from harm. We live in shelter with walls an even our heart has walls. Sometimes we need to build a wall around our heart to keep it safe from further harm. Let them in they say, give people a chance they say. For what to find out that yet again it sucks to let your guard down for a second have a moment of weakness and think for a second maybe this person cares about me. No thank you, I am good now. I have been hurt more times than I can count and really don't care to have it happen again, ever. No more pretty words and fake smiles followed by empty promises for a future. No more thinking about what it would be like to wake up next to someone anymore. None of it, I don't need it and I don't want it. I may be a hopeless romantic waiting for someone to really mean what they say to me but I am not naive enough to believe every word that is being shoveled out. The level of difficulty to get to me just got a little higher and may seem impossible to the wrong person to which I say GOOD let's keep it that way. If I appear unattainable then I probably am at this point. I want someone who isn't afraid to show me real effort not just talk a good game. I want someone who wants me for me and someone who won't have to hide me either. I have manners, I am well spoken and easy to get along with, I am motivated and extremely loyal to the person who is loyal to me so it's not like I have weird habits that need to be hidden and I certain am not hideous to look at so that shouldn't be an issue either. Ugh really at this point I just give up on love because I really feel like love has given up on me.........
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